The red jackets with quotes from the lyrics to Nickelback's song in their video are amazing.

Does anyone know if they can be purchased anywhere? I've browsed and browsed, but my search has failed.

Article posted in SB Sun news, they think my mom is involved and they are looking for her. WTF. Friend of hers/ours has been taken into custody and they are trying to give her 20-life. I feel like my brain is gonna explode from all of the drama going thru it. Nervous, shocked, pissed off. You know, all the really irritating emotions a human can have at one time. I'm not a happy person.

Work sucked last night. Got pissed at Brie for screwing up some stuff, had crappy people, horrible tips, and just a bad night all around. Not good money :(

Still not a happy person.

My daughter is amazing though. And so is my husband. So I guess I'm good for now. I just need some cheering up. Or some good news. Or maybe just a really great "I did my best" cry.

Maybe I'll watch some movies to bring on the waterworks. I'll be a drama momma for the next few days, I think. Or weeks. Until this dumb mafia stuff calms down. Or disappears. I'd be happier with the latter.

I hardly sleep, and I sleep too much. I'm awake all night at work, come home, Joe leaves, Peyton wakes up, I'm awake all day. I try to nap, I turn into a bitch because I'm so sleepy, I take it out on everyone, and it makes me feel like such a tool. I need to work on a sleeping pattern. Or maybe just never sleep. I haven't figured out the cure yet, but whatever it is, I need to find it soon. Coffee and Red Bull don't even affect me anymore.

Work has been amazing. I'm so glad it's summertime and that there are more customers and better tips. I'm making bank, and I'm so happy that I can actually contribute to the bills/rent. It makes me feel good to do something alongside Joe.

Speaking of the husband, he and his dad are talking again. I couldn't be happier.

Life is good, Peyton is amazing. She's running, talking, laughing, playing, doing everything that she should be and more. I need to take her to a doctor soon for a checkup since she hasn't been in who knows how long, but she is healthy and happy with no problems. Medical is just a pain in the ass that doesn't like to help us out. And we're lazy. So it's not a good match.

Spending the day relaxing and cleaning before leaving for work tonight. Hoping to stop by D'lush and get a Cha Cha Chai before heading into Mel's. They call me "love" and make the absolute BEST chai tea in Hollywod. Or at least that's my opinion.

I can't sleep, it's driving me insane. Last night I stayed up til 5:30 in the morning. I can't do this anymore.

Working graveyard isn't helping, though. Esp when having a baby.

I'm procrastinating too much. I have a lot of shit that's gotta be done in the next five weeks. Time to try to be productive!

I'll update how that goes, when it goes...

I think that Peyton has whooping cough. UGH. Read online that she can have coughing spells for two weeks to four months. I really, really hope it's not that bad... But I know she's already having the spells, they're waking her up in the middle of the night and everything. So, so scary.

Since medical is a pain in the arse we are going to go to the ER when Joe gets home in a few hours and tell them to just send us a bill and tell us what the heck is going on and give us a prescription.

It's contagious so no visits from other babies for a while.

I'll write more when I find out what's up.

I tried to make a post from my phone around five in the morning after work, but of course it didn't go thru.

Short story? There was a fight between three tables of mine at work last night. Crazy, but entertaining of course. Ended well.

Life is good. Paying bills and trying to get shit done.

Gonna watch Nick's Spectacular tonight? Hm... Looks lame, but oh well.

Shit. I forgot to call my niece for her birthday. WTF.

Peyton is sick. I'm getting over being sick. Joe's fine. Overall, we're just living the normal day to day life with some coughs in between. A coughs a cough though, no reason to rush Peyton to the hospital, thank goodness. We just need to ride it out.

I went out TWICE yesterday!

Joe dropped me off at Piper's and we hung around there for a bit. Listened to music, helped her put some dishes away, had a cigarette with Gannon and then ate some lasagna and no bake cookies (which were AMAZING).
Piper and I decided to go see "He's Just Not That Into You", and last minute Gannon decided to go with us. He had to drop by Wells Fargo first, so we ended up being late. Decided to watch Push instead and used the free time to get some ice cream and play in the arcade. I got to play DDR, which was fun as hell with Piper. Movie was really good.

Came home, spent some time with Joe and Peyton, and then got a call from Caroline asking if I wanted to do anything tonight. Joe dropped me off at Mels and I was wearing my Harley Davidson tattoo shirt which got everyone laughing. Caroline and I walked around Hollywood Blvd. for a bit. We tried to go to Coffee Bean but it was closed so we just walked down Orange, tried to get into Hollywood High but got kicked out by the late night janitors. We gave up on our mission and decided to join the Mel's crew and go see Friday the 13th at Manns Chinese. Great movie, great crowd, and was scared shitless. I've never consumed so much popcorn in one day.

I think I'm going to go make some brownies now.

I hate when I have long periods of time between my posts here. I always forget what happens.

We had a mini-birthday party for Peyton on the 30th at my pop's place, aunts and uncles came. Kameron and Jen stopped by before they went to a concert, but besides them no other cousins stopped by. I don't really care, but they could have sent a happy birthday text for Peyton the next day...

On her actual birthday we just hung around the house all day and took a big family nap. Then we picked up Joe's mom and John on the way to my work and they had dinner while I started my shift.

I had my first girls night out last week. Me, Caroline and Leah went out to dinner at The Rainbow Bar and Grill, which was AMAZING. Brough John and Ace some food cause they were sick and couldn't do anything. Then we went back to Mel's, had a couple shots, and then Kahal drove us all to Avalon for Tigerheat. Got in for free, danced all night, was groped by gay men asking if my tits were real or fake, and got free drinks. Stumbled in bed, had some nice "thank you for letting me go out" sex, and then fell into peaceful sleep.

Things haven't really been too eventful since then. Just anticipating our lease ending so that we can get out of this joke of an apartment. Still debating our options, but getting the money to get out of this place completely is our ideal strategy.

We have a lot of stuff that we need to do in the next few months. Hopefully we can get it all done... Time to start making some lists...

Right now though, Joe is making breakfast... Time to go enjoy it!

Things have been going a little bit better.

I've been in such an awkward stage lately. I don't know if I'm exactly "depressed", but I'm definitely not excited about anything in particular with my day to day life. The only amazing thing going on is the fact that I have Peyton and Joe... That should be enough, but my mind is just so... off.

I think the fact that I don't have my diploma is really starting to bother me. Peyton is going to be one on Saturday, and I still haven't gotten that accomplished. I really wish that I would have finished up high school instead of just dropping everything. I still have an urge to get it done though, and that's better than giving up at least.... I am just impatient and feel like the longer I wait, the more impossible it will be....

I need a hobby. I need something to do during the day so that I don't just sit on my ass and stare at the computer screen. It's like I'm always either doing that or sleeping. I need more to my life.

I am happy, I really am. I just feel... out of place. Like I'm missing something.

I can't wait until we move. I feel like that's the answer to my issues I think. This apartment is depressing. I hate having a roommate, and I have all of my neighbors. If you lived here, you'd understand what I'm talking about. All we do is complain about all of it. It's disgusting.

Anywho, this weekend is definitely going to be amazing. I will update as much as possible.

Peyton is eating Ritz crackers and I'm reading some fanfiction.

I really want to own a house. I've been thinking about it a lot the past few days, and I'm just thinking about what kind of place I'd want, rooms, bathrooms, all the stuff that comes along with it. I wonder how long it will take to get to that place...

I think just the idea of us moving (hopefully) soon is getting me thinking about moving in the future. I want to have a nice apartment when we leave here because I don't want to move after a year lease next time. I want to stay wherever we go until we have enough to own a house, because it will give us and Peyton stability. I jumped around so much when I was a kid- I don't want to do that to Peyton. I want to stay in one place for a while.

I'm hoping that we can have a house in the next 5-8 years. I think that's reasonable... Sooner would be great... Maybe I'll start putting a dollar a day into the lottery, maybe we could get lucky... We deserve a little luck... At least I think we do. We work our asses off.

I want to start school soon. It's really been depressing me. I have a long way to go if I'm thinking about all of these big projects...